I am my own worst enemy
I read an article today about, yes, being your own worst enemy. It went into details on how if you are not happy with your life, then you are the only one who can change that. If things are not going to way you want them to go, it is up to you to create the change you want.
I agree fully with what I read.
I do tend to allow my mind to wander to the dark side and stay there. Even my son tells me that I always think the worst. Growing up my mother would tell me that she always thought the worst so that if it didn't happen or better if something good happened, then she was pleasantly surprised. If the worst did happen, then she was not caught off guard. And now, here I am. Following blindly along in my mother's footsteps.
That has to change
There is an ongoing battle in my head over all the things I face. Most of which, admittedly, would probably never happen. Part of which, are relatively of little importance in the grand scheme of things. The important stuff, really needs little worry, just handle and move on. Which needs to be my attitude for the whole shebang.
If I'm worried over bills and financial dealings, create a budget.
If I'm worried over if people like me or not, stop. All that should matter is if I like myself.
If I'm worried over my job. Stop, if something happens and I lose my job, there will be something else out there. As long as I'm healthy and able to work, I'm sure I could find something. I see people older than me working every day.
If I'm worried over staying warm, stop. There is a forest of trees in my back yard. I'm sure I could manage to get enough wood for the wood stove.
If, I'm worried about being alone for the rest of my days, stop. Plenty of people are happy by themselves. Being alone is peaceful, no drama, no fighting over cover or remotes. Its cheaper as there is one less person deciding how warm or cold or what level programming you have for the television. You need less groceries. You can go and come as you please with no one to wonder where you've been.
Yes, it can get lonely, but as has been said repeatedly, you have to learn to be alone first. Once you get to where you are happy being alone, it won't matter if there is or isn't someone else. Once you have learned about yourself, you know the type person you are interested in and who would be the best to get along with.
I've been fighting with my own personal demons, I feared for a bit they were winning, but since I've started this, I am getting a much better handle on things. I think its going to be fine.
I agree fully with what I read.
I do tend to allow my mind to wander to the dark side and stay there. Even my son tells me that I always think the worst. Growing up my mother would tell me that she always thought the worst so that if it didn't happen or better if something good happened, then she was pleasantly surprised. If the worst did happen, then she was not caught off guard. And now, here I am. Following blindly along in my mother's footsteps.
That has to change
There is an ongoing battle in my head over all the things I face. Most of which, admittedly, would probably never happen. Part of which, are relatively of little importance in the grand scheme of things. The important stuff, really needs little worry, just handle and move on. Which needs to be my attitude for the whole shebang.
If I'm worried over bills and financial dealings, create a budget.
If I'm worried over if people like me or not, stop. All that should matter is if I like myself.
If I'm worried over my job. Stop, if something happens and I lose my job, there will be something else out there. As long as I'm healthy and able to work, I'm sure I could find something. I see people older than me working every day.
If I'm worried over staying warm, stop. There is a forest of trees in my back yard. I'm sure I could manage to get enough wood for the wood stove.
If, I'm worried about being alone for the rest of my days, stop. Plenty of people are happy by themselves. Being alone is peaceful, no drama, no fighting over cover or remotes. Its cheaper as there is one less person deciding how warm or cold or what level programming you have for the television. You need less groceries. You can go and come as you please with no one to wonder where you've been.
Yes, it can get lonely, but as has been said repeatedly, you have to learn to be alone first. Once you get to where you are happy being alone, it won't matter if there is or isn't someone else. Once you have learned about yourself, you know the type person you are interested in and who would be the best to get along with.
I've been fighting with my own personal demons, I feared for a bit they were winning, but since I've started this, I am getting a much better handle on things. I think its going to be fine.
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